The second challenge is that I worry too much and I am afraid of many things. So far, the trip has been easier than I expected, and there have not been many challenges. But I know that I will have to face many fears while I am here, and if I want to serve the Lord with my whole heart I cannot cower away from things I do not like. Luckily, I have noticed that I tend to be less anxious when I am focused on God more than myself. If I continue doing His will and putting Him first, I know that I will be able to face anything.
The third major challenge is myself. I know that missionaries are not perfect, but I struggle with so many things that I feel missionaries should not be tempted by. I am impatient, but I need to be patient and wait on God to tell me what He wants me to do. I am a control freak, but there’s no way this trip will be successful unless I let God have control. I get angry easily, but I am here to show compassion to people. My faith in God is weak, but it is impossible to be an effective missionary without a strong faith. I have so much to learn!
Maybe that’s what this waiting period has about: learning. I have been frustrated that it has taken so long to get settled in and begin full-time ministry, but I have realized that God has so many things to show me while I wait. This is a time for me to get my heart right before I endeavor to lead people to Him.
So here’s how you can pray for me: Pray that I’ll get over the selfishness of my frustrations. Pray that God will give me the courage to face things that I am afraid of. And finally, pray that God will make His will apparent to me as I continue to find ways that I can serve Him.